Are you ready?

Resolution 2010

1. To smile more! - It is so easy for me to forget to smile sometimes (Who goes around having smile plastered on their face anyway?!!) Anyways, did I tell you that smile looks good on you! SMILE!!
2. Continue to be nice to people, and to get to know them genuinely! - Amen! Still working on it and its hard work!! But what I wanna say is, despite the hard works.... it is worth it (so, make it worth the hard work, make sense a?) ;)
3. To fit into the unique mould God has for me. Learn to worship Him again. - Yups!
4. And of course, take time to have fun! - Loving it lots, but not having enough time for it.

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Resolution 2011

I've been thinking about it for a while now, and here are some practical ones which I think it'll work. =D

1. Put on some weight! - And here's my strategy!! I am gonna try drinking a glass of milk every day or alternate days. According to my dearly newly graduated dietitian friend, maybe that could work. Hahaha... Thank God I don't mind drinking milk. Full cream da best~!

2. Get cooking! - Great thing about staying with mom is that dinner is always ready when I get back home, in a way, I don't have to learn how to cook. Hahahaha!!.... But anywayz, I should start learning. I shall try to cook, at least once a week (if got time la.....) Boleh? Pasta dishes is the simplest of all so far. I shall try to be a bit more adventurous next year. Erm... Yes, start learning how to cook the curry dishes, and pork and fish and chicken..... -_-"

3. And yea, continue to be nice to people. And smile. If I ever do look like I'm gonna bite your head off, I am not gonna bite your head off okay.... I may just be thinking about stuffs, just poke me and ask me what I was thinking about.

Oh yea, on a side note. It came to my ears (not just recently, but through the year) that some people thought that I am cold and hard to be approached. That got me laughing and amused, I don't know how in the world they came up with that conclusion. Hmmm..... Anyways... It doesn't matter what people think, God made each of us unique in our own ways. ;) You are too~! Let you in on a not so little secret.... You've got God's 'stamp' on you! =)

What is different?

It is almost the end of the year, and annually I'd reflect upon the year that just passed. Reflecting on the years that have gone by, I noticed a trend of how "flat" or "defeated" I am by the end of the each year. I was normally tired by the end of it, that I just want my break and start it all afresh in January.

This year, it is different. I am at peace...

So, what is different this year?

I think I've come to learn to let go of things and concentrate on what truly matters. I've learn and still learning not to take things too personally sometimes. I've learn to not be affected by what people say, usually the negative stuffs, if you don't know, negative words are different from constructive words.

I think, I've learn to see and be who I am, for who God has uniquely made me to be, and not being somebody that people hoped that I'd be. In simple words, I think I've moved on from being a people pleaser, in a good way. =)

I've had a great year so far, despite the rocky beginnings. It may just been the best year yet. Why? I dunno... Maybe I've stopped letting people's expectation of me to lead me in the way I live my life. I think I've moved beyond from living up to people's expectation. It can be tiring sometimes, you know? (Am I repeating myself here?)

So what truly matters? Or what have I learn this year?

Its people, its relationships.

Its not a hidden secret, but I do know that people only get along well with people that they are comfortable with. And that's fine, that's great.

What I truly enjoyed is that I've finally overcame my fears, and started building relationships with the families that I work with. And I am loving it lots!! I do wish to have the families be part of my life, I do wish to see the kids grow up, I do wish to walk this journey together. Do you know that sometimes, you don't need to do much, but just be a friend? =)

Hmmm....

Anyways, just thought of encapsulating the year by the months and the highlights, and see where it goes from here.

January - A new start, with a new hike.
Feb - May - Crazy fund raising, stress, anxieties, earnest prayers.
June - A dream came true.
July - Met a new friend, who ever so diligently remind me to smile. Thanks! =)
September - Holiday~!!
Oct / Nov - Blessed Aussie month.

I wanna say, I love my Year 2010. Despite the scary beginnings, its about to end well. God bless~!!

"A" for...

I told myself that I'm supposed to write something nice. Which I have to, because awesome things have just passed and new things are about to begin, I just have to pen it down somewhere, despite lacking of inspiration to write.... Anyway, here it goes.

What can I say?

The gates are finally wide open, and I sensed, this is it! After 3 years of toiling and laboring, sharing and inspiring, tugging and pushing, poking and nudging, smile~!! Here it comes! The flood of love, care, acceptance is just evident. (Not that it wasn't before... But now, it is so evident even the blind can see it)

Okay, to stop beating around the bush, I am just glad that people have finally come to acceptance of children with disability in a children's programme, and that they have overcame their fear and best part of all, they want these children to be included in every single part of the programme. Awesome?! Yes, it is!!

My joy? Seeing the change in perception, seeing the change in mindset, seeing the change.

Having said that, there were many things that got me thinking. Sometimes its so easy to accept, when you see the disability. Your heart immediately softens. But what happens, if the child look so perfectly normal, but yet behave so strangely....? Hmmm..... You think they have the same amount of love, care and acceptance too?

I believe my God is awesome, have and will continue to work things out in people's heart. Maybe in a year's time, it shall be tested again, if we are truly all set and ready to embrace all of them.

My toughest cookies? Take a guess! It starts with the alphabet "A"

Let's dance, bay-beh~!

I learned a new dance move today. Ask me to show you if you wanna see it.... HAHAHAHahahahha....

I was at a dinner and dance for young adults with learning difficulties today. My very first dinner and dance!! Hahaha... It was rather boring in the beginning, but when its time for them to hit the dance floor, that's where it starts to sizzles~! And yea, that's where I learned the dance moves.... =P

Rest

You know why I love my God? Because He is real to me.

Rest.

The word "rest" is something that I love and something that is elusive sometimes. How do you find rest? As in really rest? And enjoy the moment?

The day is perfect, blue sky, white puffy clouds, cool grass, cool breeze, view of pond with duckies, great food, and the Lord says "Rest and enjoy the moment."

Are you serious Lord? What about the many thoughts that I have? What about the many things that are ahead? What rest?!

"See, you have trusted Me all these while, so continue to do so....", "Enjoy the moment~!"

How do I know my God is real to me? Because He confirms His words.

Sermon for today is "Rest!" Coincidence? Nah.... Its my God at work. =)

See, many times we get busy, busy in doing things, busy in living life, busy in this, busy in that, busy in whatever not. Busy busy busy buzzzzzz...... I love the word rest, that sometimes, people just find it hard to accept it. Or at least that "people" is me.

It is good to keep busy, you know, doing the good things and good works of God. Jesus was always on and about doing stuffs; teaching, preaching, healing, making disciple , ministering, traveling, etc, etc... That was what I've learned, always out and about doing things.

Rest: Probably its just me, or probably just how I had perceived it. Surely "rest" not something for us who are out and about doing passionate stuffs for God. Right?

Wrong! And I was dead wrong... See, Jecy. Have you failed to see that God rested? He rested on the seventh day of creation. Oh.... And He rested in His creations.. Oohhh.....

The story of Punchinello was played at service, and how I love this story.

Eli looked at Punchinello, put his hands on those small wooden shoulders, and spoke very slowly. "Because you're mine. That's why you matter to me."....Eli said, "Because she has decided that what I think is more important than what anyone else thinks. The stickers only stick if you let them."...."Now remember," Eli said as the Wemmick walked out the door. "You ARE special because I made you, and I don't make mistakes."

Yea.... To end it, you know why I love my God? Because He is real to me.

And how do I know He real to me? Because He works in the mysterious ways that touches my heart.

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

I heard this song on the radio yesterday. I was thinking, what a sweet song it is.... Aaawwww..... SWEET!!! ^_^

"You know, you know, you know,
I'd never ask you to change,
If perfect is what you're searching for,
Then just stay the same"

Its so sweet, I could get diabetic! =P

Imagine

Imagine there's no Heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people,
Living for today.

Imagine there's no countries,
It isn't hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
And no religion too,
Imagine all the people,
Living life in peace.

You may say that I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one,
I hope someday you'll join us,
And the world will be as one.

Imagine no possessions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people,
Sharing all the world.

You may say that I'm a dreamer,
But I'm not the only one,
I hope someday you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.



I was with a group of adults with special needs doing music therapy today when one of them requested for this song to be sung. Listening to the lyrics... I could only wonder if he understood what the song meant.

I was touched by the lyrics I must say.